I too have lost my husband of 22 years 4 mos and 22days. He had brain cancer and I had to watch him deteriate for a year and 4 mos. I lost him June 28,2007. I felt I died with him. As I am sure you all feel that way. However It has been 9 mos and I am beginning to feel alive again. Jehovah has given me strength to continue to train my children and others about the wonderful resurrection hope at John 5:28& 29 as well as the promise of no more pain death or suffering at Rev 21:3&4. I also lost my mother to a tragic death in June of 1993. She lost her life in a sudden tractor accident. I'm hear to tell you whether it is fast or slow the pain is deeply felt. Jehovah put and eternity into our hearts, so death is unnatural and devistating. I am very sorry for the loss of your mates because I know the feeling of losing the human to whom you are closest to, you complement and helper. May Jehovah strenthen you and heal your wounds. I try not to let myself think about the day of their deaths and pray for Jehovah to guard mine and your hearts and mental powers as he promises at Phil 4: 6&7. Continue to petition him and he will guard your thinkng. Stay busy in service. I know this can be hard when you just want to crawl in bed and not face the world. The new tasks you have to handle as the new head of your families can be frighting and over whelming. Keep all these things in your prayers and he will sustain you. Remember Jehovah our heavenly father cares deeply for us as we have been crushed(Isiah 57:15). My heart goes out to you for your losses.

Christian love,
Alabama